So I talked to Megan tonight...

I had to call her to catch up on Kyleigh's newest plan and we were talking about the neurosurgery. Megan is our pediatrician... btw. She reassured me that Bob, the neurosurgeon, is a great surgeon and that he will do an amazing job with Kyleigh. I am sure she is right... I am sure that everyone is right. I have never heard a bad thing about Bob, yet here I sit totally freaking out inside. I feel this insatiable need to talk and talk and talk... and I just feel like I have diarrhea of the mouth and I feel that if I just talk until I pass out then maybe I won't have to think about it or stress about or cry about it.... and then my mind crashes in around me and I end up with a headache. I am going to take a Xanax now.......... and go to bed.